The first, real, post =)

It’s easy to lose yourself, amid the 21st century flood of pressure, graphics, and noise.
I’ve been told that I should go into writing, so here I am. I never thought I was a blogger, but looking at my facebook notes, I realize that’s exactly what I was doing. Just not as available to everyone in the world.
I recently downloaded David Cook’s self-titled album off iTunes. All of my friends know I’m a big David Cook stalker. One of my favorite songs on the album is “permanent.” David wrote 99% of the songs on this album, and all of them show little windows into the his life. This song, along with “A Daily AntheM”, is dedicated to his brother Adam’s (A Daily AntheM) struggle with cancer. Permanent is one of the most sincere, raw songs that I have heard. Secular, and yet filled to the brim with Christ.
It’s one of those songs that reminds me not to lose myself.
“I know he’s going through hell every day, so I ask ‘Oh God is there some way for me to take his pain?’”
It feels into how I’ve been feeling recently pretty damn well. I see people every day going through so much, one person in particular. There’s nothing that they want me to do, but there is everything that I want to do. I’ve prayed, I’ve asked, I’ve yelled. And there is nothing I can do that would make them accept me. Not a thing. Which hurts.
There was a blip on YouTube the other day, showing David Cook accepting his American Idol title. He cried. He always cried.
I wonder what it would be that to be that grateful all the time.