relax.

now that i feel back to myself, i am writing a cheery post about something. i just haven't figured out what yet.

lately, my circle has been divided over who is willing to forgive, who to trust, who to tell. objects that seemed attractive at first are losing their sheen, and revealing the ugly undertones. trust has been compromised, thanks to the one person in the group who seems to never know when to shush.

i've gone back to my roots in the past week, figured out why i am where i am, and why i chose this way.

i discovered that what is new, is not always beautiful. always be prepared for consequences, but sometimes it's better to care about the consequences later.

you are an individual, if you feel that characteristic is being compromised remember that the other person is no better than you, and you no better than they. (Matt 20:16?!)

never let your faith in someone fade, unless they completely shoot themselves in the foot.

i refuse to forgive someone so utterly wrong, but i appreiciate my friends telling me i should forgive anyway. i still will not forgive, now anyway.

keep your best friends close, stand by them with everything you have.

that's about it, what i have found out this week anyway. i haven't figured out how i will deal with all these realizations yet, but that's another chapter, and i don't have the Zeit right now to psychoanalyze myself.

not very cheery. drat. avast!

listening to: "you make it real" by james morrison.